blooming blessings--9 months

i've been learning that blessings come in different forms.

first trip to meet Aregash in November 2010

what happens when the blessings from God don't look the way we expect?

do we deny ourselves these blessings?

of course not. 

first trip for court--Aregash with her new "stuff"

the fact that it's a blessing can leave us feeling unworthy.

that is NOT what God intended.

so we carry on.....push on,

with a grateful heart for this gift.

leaving to go to the US Embassy to be able to bring Aregash home

and then we realize that having expectations,

no matter how big or small, 

how beautiful or sometimes not.....

leave us wondering why we really don't feel the way we should.

she is "ours"...saying goodbye at a ceremony at the care center

and with time the blessing blooms.

we see what GOD sees.

fierce about the soda pop

 and we feel happy.

~you can pause my music at the top of the page to listen :0)~


THIS is OUR blessing......
home for 9 months.

and when i think that this is how long we mamas carry our babies in our bellies, 
i think about how amazingly well this child of mine has transitioned.
english is her third language.....
as if that isn't the most amazing thing in itself.

(sadly she has completely lost her 1st and 2nd languages, wolaytinga and amharic).

she has always been spunky and loving and sensitive at times.
and now the love she gives,
she gives soo freely,

the trust she has in all of us....
how do you trust when your world has been turned upside down?

all God's doing.

it is incomprehensible what things look like only being home 9 months.

those dang expectations have gotten in the way soo many times.

and what our God wants.....

he wants us to just be thankful 
for each day,

for each little moment,

for each snuggle,

and each kiss.

God is whispering,

"just do it,

enjoy it,

bask in it,

LOVE it.

LOVE HER....

the way that i 

LOVE YOU".

 so i do,

and i do,

and i do,

and 

I 

WILL.

thank you precious Father,

for my gift.


Happy 9 months HOME 
my sweet baby girl!
I LOVE YOU!!!!