Wednesday, May 18, 2011

mommy in me


i always wanted to be a mommy.  
even when i was too young to understand what it really meant and how hard it could be
i wanted to be someone's mom.  
i played with dolls until way into junior high.
i would line them all up along the wall and take turns giving them my time.
i'd talk to them,
rock them,
dress them.
everything a good mommy would do.
they had feelings.
and i was there to take care of them.

this is me with one of my first "babies"

then when my baby brother came i tried to show my mom how it was done.
i was 8.
and when i was finishing up my last year of college 
(yes it took me 8 years to complete my degree...and yes, it was in education....taking care of and teaching children
i was pregnant with my first son.
i didn't want to be a teacher
i wanted to be a mommy.
people could see it,
especially my mom.
that's all i've ever wanted.
so i stayed home and played with my baby.
that's still all i want.....
to be a mommy
to him
and him
and him
and her.
God 
blessed
 me 
again and again and again and again.
i hope He can be proud of the mommy He sees.
it's not as easy as it seemed back then.
things never really are....
easy.


and when i'm sad
i just think about
the mommy that's always been 
inside 
of 
me.







Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Running

I'm pretty disappointed that my last post about my baby boy's 8th Birthday was deleted by Blogger while they were having problems.  I've been patiently waiting to see if it comes back, but no-such-luck. sad face. 
 So instead of whining and pouting more I will just post his cute face and give a few updates.  I feel like I am steering further and further away from my computer these days, so I don't post as often or read my favs. Blogs as much and I really DO feel like I'm missing out sometimes.
I'll try to do better. :0)


LUKE
Lukey's 8th Birthday party...also the day his eye caught a ball :0(

 Luke was playing catch with some older boys, which then turned in to a game of pitch/hit...Luke being the pitcher.  Line drive right to the cheek.  

2 days later
 We took him to the eye doctor as the nurse from school thought he may have a damaged retina.....everything is good--TTL!

5 days and tired of pictures

7 days later and still cute as ever :0)

yesterday-9 days
 It looks better, except for the blood on the white of his eye and the bulge on his cheek bone.  I wonder what THAT'S from!!  And when will it go away?

He's also working on loosing his top two front teeth and one on the bottom.  Wouldn't that have just been pretty!!



 COLE
He ran track this year at school and now it's over--fun to watch (esp when the weather cooperated) 

Cole's last track meet

running the 1600--soo proud of him!

One of the coaches gave the little kids a chance to run in-between races. 
Aregash was pretty excited to take a chance.

needing brother's hand this time, but by the next meet she was running like a champ!

AREGASH
She had her first dental appt--3 months after being home.  No cavities!!  Yay!  The ped doc. thought she had some decay in her molar--turned out to be a stain.  I think she's the healthiest Ethiopian babe I've ever heard of!  No parasites, no fungus, no snotty nose.  
Now how bout the breath?  Any ideas of where THAT comes from????

she loved every minute of it and was disappointed when they didn't b-roosha (brush) her teeth with the polisher.....she had recently been there with her mama.




 ZACHARY
Zachary playing his recorder at 4th grade spring program

Zachie is playing baseball when he isn't in school.  This season is a commitment of usually 6 days a week, which he isn't always happy about.  He is in the Major Division of Little League which seems to be quite the step from where he was last year.  He is 10 and it seems that the older kids get first chance at playing the infield.  We are still hoping he will get his turn as he ROCKED as pitcher in the past years--he's just a super-star when it comes to sports.  You would figure that the younger kids would get a chance too, as THEY will be there next year...and the year after that.  They do have to try out to make the team so they do have the talent.  We'll keep our fingers crossed. :0)

And THAT is what we're up to...just in case you missed us. :0) 

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Three months ago our family became complete because of FAITH.....Aregash Faith.


three months ago today we finished the last leg of our journey.  
she is home.  
she is with us.  
she is a part of our family.  
we are in love.  
we are complete.  
we are blessed.






our family is now complete because of FAITH.
Aregash FAITH Dejene Chiolis


~she is the missing piece to our puzzle.
and we are hers~

Monday, April 25, 2011

Our Easter......Jesus Lives--Oh yea.



Easter is always a little chaotic at our house, 
but I love it!  
And when we get to church I can breathe a sigh of relief. 
 This is the time when I lay it all down and worship. 
 I love being on the Praise team and singing my heart out....
to Him. :0)  


 HE was pierced by our transgressions

this decoration was with me as a child and my mom gave it to me.  sweet memories.....she told me she painted it when we were little--never knew that.

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Cole served communion at our service--soo proud of him!

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all the Easter-egg hunters-----cousins from Rapid City--missing the Alaskan crew (Casey's kiddos)



Doll-face

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Nephew Jace--had to climb on the play-set for some eggs--such a tough guy

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never too old

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Adriana--'bout to blow away!

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Luke's "stash"

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M'Kenzie babe

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Aregash telling Grandma Gail stories about what's inside

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My brother, Clay's family (fiance' Jessilyn)

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Sister, Kim's family

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lov'n cousins

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Grandpa George & Grandma Sharon (Dic's parents) with the kiddos

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the GIRL table

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the "adult" table
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the ??? leftovers??? table

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the BOY table......minus a couple of the boys

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 by HIS wounds.........  
~by HIS wounds we are healed~



Friday, April 22, 2011

Our journey to Addis Ababa, Ethiopia to bring our daughter home.....PART I




waiting to board in Rapid City, SD


the next leg to Amsterdam, Holland


I decided it was about time I write about our journey across the world to bring our beautiful daughter home.  It has been almost 3 months since we returned home and every second is consumed with something new.  Maybe most people are "over" needing to hear the story.  It surely won't be as long as it would have been had I written the first week.  While I was there I failed to journal anything (either trip) and so all I have now is my memory. 

flying over the Nile River at sunset--beautiful

landing in Khartoum, Africa

Just like the past year, this trip was a whirlwind of emotions.
And one thing that I never failed to do throughout this journey was to pray to God, in loving thanks and to ask for guidance (and of course to speed things along :0).
 My Faith grew leaps and bounds throughout this amazing time (as if you all couldn't tell).
almost there

familiar sights...here at last

The night (planes typically land at about 11:00p.m.) we stepped off the plane in Addis Ababa I felt like I was home.  Like home in a sense that I recognized the smells and the sights and the people and looked forward to seeing my friends again.  Although THIS time the smells weren't as strong and the car ride didn't make me sick.  I do believe that all of the prayers we received throughout the world for health helped me this trip.  Not once did I even feel nauseated.....not once.  Even the trip south to Durame that I had been warned about was  absolutely painless.

It was soo great to see all of our adopting friends again (most of us flew in at the same time) and we began the party.  The next day (Friday) we all got in the mini-bus and went to an orientation at the Holt office to fill out paperwork for embassy, etc.  We were then taken to a beautiful restaurant high on a hill that showed the whole city beneath our feet. 
Addis Ababa, Ethiopia


Faces of Ethiopia restaurant with friends, Eric & Lori

our friend Mariah, whom we traveled with, and her mama

friends Mike & Stephanie

the rest of the crew--Garrett & Angie, Justin & Amanda

Tyler & Heather

Next we were taken to be reunited with our kiddos......FINALLY!


hearts are pounding

 I can't even tell you how nervous and excited I was to see my baby girl again.......and to see her reaction to us.

I remember seeing two little girls with hands held by a nanny.  Was THIS her?  No......THIS little girl had her hair all tied back in tiny little braids.  I didn't even recognize her.  And then she smiled.  And that twinkle in her eye.  Oh dear God......this WAS her!  THIS was my child who had grown like two inches in the two very long months we had waited for each other.
 I knew she was pretty, but she was unbelievably gorgeous!  And SHE didn't have to be told where her parents were.....she spotted us right away and came running in, right into her daddy's arms.




 She was nervous--maybe just overwhelmed by the amount of people and attention.  She sticks her tongue up under her lower lip when she's trying not to smile (just like our boys always have--these types of things validate her being OUR child)).  We spent 2 hours (maybe more) with her that day.  All the families in one semi-small space with all of our kiddos playing on the floor. 
Mike and Stephanie with their twin boys

Jolie and baby girl


Heather & Tyler and their little man

Garrett , Angie and Aregash's little friend


Amanda, Justin and their sweet siblings

Mariah and Mason


Sister Elsa (the head nurse at this care center) came over and told us what a lovely child she is.  Always a smile on her face....always very sweet and loving to the other children and babies.  And then the director of the center chimed in.  He told us that every day that we were gone, (it was right about 2 months between trips) Aregash would ask "Is my family coming today?".  He may have even rolled his eyes a little like it was beginning to irritate him.  But can you imagine waiting and longing for someone you've met only once in your life?  I felt sad and honored at the same time.  She HAD remembered us!  She WAS looking at the photo book we left for her!  She was truly excited to be a part of our family.  And then he told me that when all of the children were gathered together, Aregash would tell them to come and she would point to a picture on the wall.  She would say, "This is what my mother looks like" (the children call all women MOMMY and he said she said it differently about me--sniff).  I asked him what the picture was.  He said it was a Disney photo....of Cinderella.  I wanted to cry.  I mean who WOULDN'T want their child to think they look like Cinderella, right?  It gave me just a glance of what she must have felt for me the first time we met.  And every second we were with her she had her arms wrapped snuggly around our necks.....as if to say "I am never letting you go".


I can't remember how she reacted that first day that we had to leave her, but it didn't seem traumatic...like it had been explained to her that we were returning the next day.
 And we did, of course :0)

~to be continued very soon........

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